My grandpa who was 95 years old
I always had a special feeling for him
though I kind of felt awkward around him
when I was little.
He made us soymilk which I couldn’t drink back then,
he once made us some doughnuts when we visited him,
he always told me to see the world
without having ‘colored glass’ on my eyes.
he always told us that
your own self could only be protected by yourself
so that we always have to be conscious and careful,
He wasn’t a grandpa who would smile at us
or do something very special in that regard
but still, I am realizing more and more
that he had always been somebody very special.
It’s sad to think that
we are never going to receive
the new year’s day card with
‘from an ordinary man from Sasebo’ on it.
You were never ‘ordinary’.
Miss not having you, grandpa.
Sorry I can’t be at the funeral
…but something tells me that
you are not a person
who would care much about funeral anyways.
Still, I am sorry.
I will miss you.
We will miss you.
You probably had never ever touched a computer
or would not understand English,
but I hope this reaches you.